My god! Everything is so damn iritating this week!!! I can't take it! If it's not about coursework, it's my uniform, if it's me getting behind on homework, it's me not trying hard enough! I try damn hard!!! I do my bloody best at school but no one gives a fuck! I'm so pissed off, I feel so caged! I feel so put down, I feel so damn alone!

Ergh... dude, I just a had a random rant. I'm so tired. But anyway, the point is, my school (Treviglas Community College, throw eggs at it if you get the chance) is doing my head in. Recently all the teachers can be bothered with is making us all look the same. Making sure we're perfect in the eyes of the goverment, in the eyes of crocked politions. They don't care about us, or the what we are under the cheap, sweatshop made, uncomfortable uniform. Anything that makes you look unique, is taken off you or broken by them! I can't go in there and wear eyeliner, I can't go in there with my stretched earlobes and piercings in, I can't go in there being myself!

It's too much. As soon as I set foot in there I'm labeled and numbered. They don't care about who your are, how creative you are and what you beleive in! I have been called an emo! I have been called troublesome! I have been told I have an attitude problem! I have the attitude problem? Those bloody teachers have the attitude problem! All they do is yell at you for no apparent reason and throw their weight around whenever offsted is in. Screaming at whoever crosses their path.

They're all filthy fucking hippocrits. All of them. I have only had about five teachers in that school that are decent! People that are normal and treat me like an equal insted of someone of unimportance. Everyday I get treated like shit there, if not from people calling me an emo, from the teachers that think I'm trouble. Yes I have goten a teacher fired. But I don't really think letting my class (In 9th grade) see a movie about the holocaust and letting, achually letting, kids in the lesson say "good shot" whenever a nazi shot a Jewish person is achually right. There are some real sick sick people in this world.

I have had times in school when I have felt so caged and restrained that I have screamed out and yelled what I really think of Treviglas. Telling teachers what I really think. Other than one occasion I stick to my manners and values. I supress my beleifs and ways in fear of being judged by them all. I have said I enjoy watching horror movies and I get called a physcopath, I have said the "top button and tie rule" is stupid and I get told to shut up and do as I'm told, I have gone hyper in class and sent out because I have been told I have ADD (I don't by the way). I said all those things to teachers, and all get from them is smug, insulting responses.

My schools moto is "Everybody matters." I laugh at this. Because it's obvious to me and everyone else there, that this is not the case. Teachers and staff don't care. They care about their pay checks. They care about themselves and no one else. Another, is treat others with respect and thats what you'll get, great moto, but whenever I have shown anyone respect I don't get it back. In one assembly, me and the two of the other school houses were talking quietly, and then our headteacher decided to tell us off for this. She says, "What I have just wittnessed is the "Pack". Animals stay in packs because they have inferer brains, thats what all of you are like, and acting like right now. That is why here at Treviglas, we aimed to split you from your "Pack" and turn you into civilised human beings." I'm sorry Mathieson, but to me it sounds like your telling us to abandon our friends and make us grow up like you, a lonely, old, friendless hag that finds happiness in throwing her weight around and acting superior.

That is why I say this. Rebel people. Rebel. Be yourself. Be who you are. We what you want, when you want. Treat others well. Don't label people for what they wear. Be part of the pack and tresure it. And above all else have fun. Because I know for sure thats what I would do if I could.